song to the sun

i always read. i always read manga. i always read manga that's completely scanlated. i always read short manga that's completely scanlated. but it's rare for me to find manga that affects me this much. i read Taiyou no Uta from Aerendria Scans and I never thought it would be that good... and it would have this much effect on me.

Basically, it's like another twist of A walk to remember by Nicholas Sparks (which by the way was a favorite of mine for quite some time back then). It was sad, tragic and somehow realistic. The girl had XP disease, I googled it and it's a sickness that affects the enzymes that help us heal when we get sunburned or etc.

Anyway, she likes this surfer guy who passes by their house everyday. But they were like night and day, they couldn't meet. And then by chance, he was out at night and she met him. It was a sweet, short and realistic story of boy meets girl, girl blurts out feelings for boy, boy slowly likes girl and everybody's happy. and then suddenly girl's sickness worsens and girl dies.

There was a movie version of the manga. Yup, a movie version of the manga, not a movie based on the manga but a movie version of the manga. Everything was the same upto the details of the clothes, the characters, the setting - every little thing was exactly as how it was shown in the manga... even the framing was exactly the same. The only bonus was, I could actually hear the song in the movie while I needed a little bit of imagination and creativity in imagining her songs from the manga. Even the lyrics of the song was straight out from the manga. it was eerie and cool.

Good thing I read the manga right before watching the film, or I wouldn't have understood some dead air moments. There were times when they just sat there, staring into space. In the manga, there were personal realizations or the conscience speaking but in the movie, it was dead air. It was realistic but weird. i've been too spoiled with hollywood movies wherein i had to be entertained every second else i walk out of the theatre. i heard in japan, they finish the movie and leave only after the credits finished rolling on the screen. their patience in everything is amazing. really amazing.

anyway. after reading the manga. watching the movie, in youtube - good thing it was in youtube. im now downloading the ost. because yui's voice was amazing. it was soft and beautiful and she justified the character well.

all in all. i spent the night obsessing again. at least my exams are all done so i have enough time to accomodate my fangirlism. cant wait to find more obsession-worthy stuff. hehehe.

three thoughts to live by..

we love.
human beings are amazing. we love in spite of imperfections. we love even though it might not be returned. we love even if it's impossible. we like the idea of loving so much, divorce is legal in a lot of countries and monogamy is synonymous to boring marriage. we believe in the idea of love even though nobody can define it, but anybody can prove its existence. we love even though we get hurt in the process. we love because the pain balances the happiness. we love because we're masochists.

we learn.
we learn, after loving, that there is more to life. we yearn for knowledge, experience and skill even though we do not know specifically what those are for. we want to know what's beyond as if it is our life's purpose. we learn because we are capable of learning. we love because we are capable of loving. we learn to love and we love to learn.

we live.
we always try to define life. we say we are living if we have the necessary social interactions, riches, experiences, knowledge, and activities to be considered living -- if we have something worth living for. what if we weren't meant to have something, should we cease to live at all?

we love. we learn. we live.
we learn to love and in the process, we hope to live.