resurrected: interview with a suicidal

warning: high school ko pa ata to ginawa kaya pasensyahan sa malalang grammar. oo, malala pa rin grammar ko ngayon.. pero promise. mas malala to. anyway. ang importante naman e: to get the thoughts across.. whatever that means. kaya heto ang lumang blog entry ko na nais kong iresurrect dahil sa panahon ng patay at pagluluksa... (si * nga pala, ay si alter ego ko.. kung avid fan ka, baka maalala mo siya mula sa 1st entry ko dito)

interview with a suicidal.... bwahahahhaha

1. Do you want to die?
a. yup (nods head)
b. no (shakes head and starts a long sermon about the value of life)

*obviously yes! I wish to die.

2. Do you want to kill yourself?
a. yup (insert evil smile which would scare even the devil himself)
b. nopes (and pretend to have a halo and wings)

*nope, contrary to the idea that all suicidal geeks want to kill themselves, i ,for one, do not want to kill myself. I want my death to be caused or willed by another human being or creature because I still want fate to take it's course. though i'm not being angelic about this thing but if ever i want to die, i'd still want to have a chance to go up...

3. Do you feel that life is useless?
a. yup (cries "life is so useless" sob sob)
b. no

*.yup,main reason why i want to die...

4. Is there a purpose for your living?
a. nope.
b. yes. (the trees, the grass, the sky, the people, everything is worth living for)

*haha. i dont know if there's a purpose for my existence... i seem to not know a lot of things..

5. Are you living for one person?
a. yup (because i love him/her)
b. nope. (i'm living for a million people, they need me!)

*i'll just comment on this one.. if you believe you are currently living for that one particular person. please for whoever's sake don't kill yourself. i have this freaking belief that if that someone is the sole reason why you want to kill yourself then kill him/her. life is great without them. bwahahahha! anyways, if you're heartbroken and that's the reason why you just want to kill yourself then i'll tell you one thing, the pain in killing yourself will not dull the pain in your heart. okie? even dead people hurt.

6. Do you love someone?
a. nope
b. yup

*i love people, things, life. i may be suicidal but i'm a suicidal with a twist. maybe i'm just simply neurotic..psychotic?

7. Do you have any knowledge about someone liking you?
a. nope
b. yup

*if ever you answered yes then you should not die even just for the happiness of that other person, because there is a tendency that other person would kill himself too and that would result to a murder/homicide.

8. do you cry on purpose due to overflowing emotion?
a. nope
b. yes

* i don't cry, i mean i don't cry on purpose or something. I cry due to my allergic rhinitis but due to people or certain events in life, i usually don't. i seem to be the kind of person who sits and stares and just let things happen.

9. do you dream a lot?
a. no
b. yes

*i love to dream and that is one reason why i don't want to kill myself... because... i love to fulfill those dreams... so why in the world do i still want to die? because i have this urge to know what's beyond.

10. do you still want to die?
a. yes
b.no

*i don't really know but maybe yes?

[ if you answered mostly a's then you are a certified suicidal person. if you answered mostly b's then life for you is happy. no need to die... okie?]

shiet.. ano kayang iniisip ko nun? grabeh.